So here's what happened. A week ago I quit my job. I just couldn't take it anymore. I woke up and couldn't even get physically dressed for work, and all I could do was cry. I just didn't go in. The only good thing about it my job was that I worked with my two best friends. One of the girls, who I hang out with and talk to all the time, has seen me spiral on this downhill slope of unhappiness for months. I would come into work miserable, because I hated it that much. I felt like I wasn't myself anymore. This past week I've felt happier than I have in a long time simply not being there.
The problem is that it's the three of us that exclusively work together. (We're cocktail servers.) And we've been short staffed so there is really no one else, but they didn't even try to look for another person in the past couple months as other girls have left. It was Saturday night when I didn't go in, and my one friend, I'm gonna call her LL, well LL was there first, and I texted her and told her I wasn't coming in, that I was so sorry, I just couldn't do it anymore. I told LL I was so unhappy and I finally just snapped and how I didn't want to hurt her. Obviously I dicked over LL and our other friend by not coming in, being that it was busy and they had to scramble to find anyone that could take my place for the night. I also told the other girl the same thing, and she said she loves me and everything will be okay.
LL did not have the same reaction. She was clearly very upset, as well as she should be. I know just not showing up screwed her up that night and it came out of the blue because she was already at work when I told her, so I hoped that it wouldn't affect our friendship too horribly. Well, maybe I'm expecting too much because it's only been a week still, but I feel like things aren't going to be the same between us and I'm scared I'm going to lose her as a friend. LL has literally become one of the best friends I have ever had, and we became so close that I just couldn't handle losing her. I know what I did was selfish, but I was so unhappy I had to do what was right by me. I just didn't think I could survive another day in that place. Since then we've texted each other everyday, but she hasn't called me at all. I called her a couple times and she didn't pick up. Tonight she texted that my manager said I have some tip envelopes there still and I asked if it'd be awkward if I went there and she said it would be for her.
On her facebook she's posted a couple times about missing the three of us at work together.
I suppose she just needs more time, but I've told her how truly sorry I am and how I never meant to hurt her. Our other friend is much more understanding, and we've been okay. I know what I did was shitty. I think we're supposed to have lunch next week, so maybe we can talk then.
The problem is that it's the three of us that exclusively work together. (We're cocktail servers.) And we've been short staffed so there is really no one else, but they didn't even try to look for another person in the past couple months as other girls have left. It was Saturday night when I didn't go in, and my one friend, I'm gonna call her LL, well LL was there first, and I texted her and told her I wasn't coming in, that I was so sorry, I just couldn't do it anymore. I told LL I was so unhappy and I finally just snapped and how I didn't want to hurt her. Obviously I dicked over LL and our other friend by not coming in, being that it was busy and they had to scramble to find anyone that could take my place for the night. I also told the other girl the same thing, and she said she loves me and everything will be okay.
LL did not have the same reaction. She was clearly very upset, as well as she should be. I know just not showing up screwed her up that night and it came out of the blue because she was already at work when I told her, so I hoped that it wouldn't affect our friendship too horribly. Well, maybe I'm expecting too much because it's only been a week still, but I feel like things aren't going to be the same between us and I'm scared I'm going to lose her as a friend. LL has literally become one of the best friends I have ever had, and we became so close that I just couldn't handle losing her. I know what I did was selfish, but I was so unhappy I had to do what was right by me. I just didn't think I could survive another day in that place. Since then we've texted each other everyday, but she hasn't called me at all. I called her a couple times and she didn't pick up. Tonight she texted that my manager said I have some tip envelopes there still and I asked if it'd be awkward if I went there and she said it would be for her.
On her facebook she's posted a couple times about missing the three of us at work together. I suppose she just needs more time, but I've told her how truly sorry I am and how I never meant to hurt her. Our other friend is much more understanding, and we've been okay. I know what I did was shitty. I think we're supposed to have lunch next week, so maybe we can talk then.
