I've finally realized that I deserve better than what I've been getting for the past 3 years. My soon to be ex-fiance has done nothing but treat me
like crap our whole relationship and I finally opened my eyes and realized that I don't want to live like that for the rest of my life. I don't have
to. We've pretty much never had a sex life because he prefers to go on the computer and watch porn instead and I am just OVER IT.
I just overheard him talking to his friend on the porch about how he will probably never stop partying and being he is 28 years old, he still has a good 5 years until he will "settle down" if ever. This would have been nice to know, say.. 3 years ago when we first met so I didn't waste all this time busting my ass to keep this relationship going. I just thought he didn't know how to be in one and that he would learn eventually, and he truly may not know how, but he definitely has never been emotionally invested. He should be saying these things he is saying to his friend to ME so I can kick him in the nuts and have him be on his way. He will never find someone who will tolerate his self-destructive behavior, mood swings (he is bi-polar, manic depressive.. and does not consistently take his meds), and constant need to be out at a bar until 8am. How are those qualities that I'd ever have wanted in a husband or father???????? I thought he would change but the truth is, he kept taking these "steps" with me and never matured or grew with the relationship. I sacrificed my own happiness for his and I am not doing it anymore. He doesn't deserve it, and he doesn't deserve ME. He will end up living his life alone because all he knows how to do is care for himself and I did all I could do to make him see that but I guess he just doesn't care... and neither do I anymore
I just overheard him talking to his friend on the porch about how he will probably never stop partying and being he is 28 years old, he still has a good 5 years until he will "settle down" if ever. This would have been nice to know, say.. 3 years ago when we first met so I didn't waste all this time busting my ass to keep this relationship going. I just thought he didn't know how to be in one and that he would learn eventually, and he truly may not know how, but he definitely has never been emotionally invested. He should be saying these things he is saying to his friend to ME so I can kick him in the nuts and have him be on his way. He will never find someone who will tolerate his self-destructive behavior, mood swings (he is bi-polar, manic depressive.. and does not consistently take his meds), and constant need to be out at a bar until 8am. How are those qualities that I'd ever have wanted in a husband or father???????? I thought he would change but the truth is, he kept taking these "steps" with me and never matured or grew with the relationship. I sacrificed my own happiness for his and I am not doing it anymore. He doesn't deserve it, and he doesn't deserve ME. He will end up living his life alone because all he knows how to do is care for himself and I did all I could do to make him see that but I guess he just doesn't care... and neither do I anymore
