muffinlover wrote:
GrungeChild, why not change your name then?


Good question and I've contemplated it. I remember when I was younger (2nd grade-ish or so) and I had a list that I prepared every now and then to try to convince my parents to change it for me. "Stephanie" was a fore runner for a few years thanks to my Full House obsession.

A big reason why I haven't changed it even after turning 18 is that I learned to accept it after some time. As I mentioned, I was tormented mercilessly in grammar school and my name was a major reason. Since my classmates and I all knew each other from kindergarten it wasn't like I was a new kid and had to be hazed. No, kids were mean because they could be and my name was like a big ol' "Pick Me! Pick Me!" sign.

It wasn't until I left that "crowd" and attended a high school that none of my former classmates attended. Granted there was one girl in my freshman year that tried to start drama (that quickly stopped after she realized she was a moron for doing so), I wasn't teased during my four years. Instead, I formed many amazing (and some lasting) relationships with friends and teachers. It was during this time that I started to come into my own and started to recognize my own talents. I started to care less about wanting to change my name and started to accept it more as "me."

From time to time I think about names and none of them ever seem to fit "me." I don't even like Stephanie anymore. As I said, thankfully my job title hires based on merit and experience so despite my weird name, I know that future employers will judge me on my resume and my work ethic. It does make me anxious and it does frustrate me when I have to do introductions.

So, just simply, it's taken me quite some time but I can't see myself as anything else.

Edit due to some grammar and spelling errors. I'm tired so my posts are going to sloppy and rambling.


Edited By: GrungeChild 10/03/2009 9:54 PM. Edited 1 times.