Oh wow. I just read through this, and I am so sorry you're going through this. I said it before, and I will say it again: I wish I lived close enough to help. You have a ton of people on here that think you're awesome, me included. Whatever happens, don't hesitate to message me or post on here to get encouragement and support. You can and will get through this, no matter what happens. It seems overwhelming right now, it's something that you just found out about. But you can do this, I promise.