insomniachollie wrote:
Are you me? lol

Have to admit, even when I can't actually see/hear it for myself I do sometimes struggle just with knowing that this bullshit version of the story is going around. Even though I know all the important people do know the truth it still kind of sticks in the throat. For all my faults, I'm nothing like I'm being painted to be - that's when it starts to drive me a bit crazy and I have to repeat the mantra about what I can control. I cannot stop people gettign the wrong end of the stick or talking shit, I just have to do what I can do with myself which is to focus on better stuff.
It is so irritating to see it right in front of you, I swear she's just looking for a fight or more drama. And this isn't a new thing, we haven't spoken in close to a year yet she's still bitter about it apparently. I want to think I'm above it, but I'm just like you...it drives me nuts. I can be in the middle of my day and something will remind me of her and I'm bothered by it all over again. I'll convince myself, temporarily, that I can't control what she's saying and it shouldn't bother me but, oh, it so does. And while I know that some things that I did were wrong a lot of them weren't her business and I certainly am not going around spreading her dirty laundry everywhere, and lord knows there's quite a bit.