@insomniachollie: that's totally understandable. I've never found another friend like her. (Well, I basically lived like a hermit for the first 2 years that I started ignoring my friends). Even now, I find it hard to form the kind of friendships I used to be able to form in my teens. More than anything though, I just want her back in my life. We had gone through so much together and I really miss her.